Doll-of-a-vampire

Where does she lie tonight my once beloved sweet She who made my heart fall down to my feet I loved that picture so the picture in my mind She was so gentle, so warm so lovable, so kind And I was sad, devastated when I had to let her go There was no real future there even though I loved her so Cause she was only my imagination another thought I held too dear There was no girl like her, in true And she had to disappear So I brought her out in the garden kissed her one last time Buried that piece of paper beneath the blooming thyme I held a small, sad ceremony inside my teenage room Said, when I walked out that door I'd l

Den dagen då jag inte kan skriva en endaste dikt till Då mina läppar inte släpper ut några filosofiska tankar Då min tunga inte formar några smärtsamt vackra ord Den dagen, den blir min lyckligaste För då brinner ej längre denna konstnärssjäl, i lidandets och självföraktets eldar Då bankar ingen sorgens hammare mitt hjärta till strid Den dagen då jag inte längre måste yttra bittra stavelser När mörkret kryper alldeles för tätt inpå Den dagen blir min sista Och den ska jag invänta troget, men också me

What is life worth counting in silent tears? What is life's value compared to blinding fears? If all one feel and conquer should be darkness and despair is the forced life we were given not heavy and unfair? Who has the right to speak up when another's feeling low? If they can look with disbelief upon pain, then they do not know If life has shown is cold side and you have no warmth to wear Then it isn't hard for life itself To become a heavy burden to bear

Will there be rain? In heaven, I know you said, the sun would shine and the flowers flourish But will there be rain? You described the silvery stars How the river flowed smoothly But you didn't mention the rain nor the powerful storm. You spoke of the azure sky The warmth of the untouched ground But will there be sweet, trickling autumn rain, to cleanse ones dirty soul in? Will the storm whisk up noises Ripping at my skin? Will there be thunder and lightning above, in that heaven, you speak of Will no drops of rain fall on that beautiful ground, you've told me of? Will there be no rain to trust in, to wash away the mistake

I go all the way up And then I fall back down On my wings, they're broken and I Can't make a sound Just please come back A little later Cause now, I simply can't Show you hatred

Min värme ligger nedsjunken i lakanen Min lukt har lagt sig bland dammtussarna Klockan är alltför mycket och jag borde sova Men skuldkänslorna vill inte sina De vill straffa min syndiga kropp, min förnuftiga, logiska hjärna, och mitt vägrande, livrädda hjärta Och jag vet att de gör rätt i sina beskyllningar Det finns ingenting gott eller vackert med mitt agerande Bara en massa onödigt lidande Från min likgiltiga sida, och från omvärldens oförstående ögon Måste man verkligen vara kär för att vara lycklig?

I still find these walls too narrow And here I was thinking I'd passed the test But it seems some of the fear still remains And maybe that is all for the best Still I look out to see the sun slowly setting Instead of simply enjoying watching it rise That is my personality and my destined view To look upon the world with vigilant eyes And still my shoes don't fit me, still restless is my soul I just grew a little when it comes to appreciation Cause now I'm able to seek a little comfort and joy In this easy and enjoyable salvation But still I find myself in a stance of defense And there's a warrior's heart within this chest I hate

The colours of the sky are dark today May be for I am a heart at display No moon is reflecting the rays of the sun And the tiny stars cannot make her outdone Beneath that blue we all live in hope However I'm not sure I any longer can cope The wise is the one not to linger in doubt But I am not sure I can live as devout God is right with me, and yet far away How can I know He is with me today? What was the reason I walked so astray? Why am I a sorrowful heart at display?

So vulnerable you lie sleeping by my side Making my two beings and universes collide I watch your calm breath's one by one Passing your lips as the night's just begun All locking devices I've put on my soul I gave you the key, and now you're in control Down the horizon the sunlight descends Or is it my life that is closing the ends? Lacing my hands I raise them in plea Silently begging for you to not see I need you so much I haven't got anything left You took my existence and yet not by theft I've given you all I have the capacity to give And now I've forgotten how I'm supposed to live It's scary to observe you defenseless so ne

Alone in my room I lie in the dark of night Feeling the atmosphere wishing to ignite It wants to burn and I know that so do I But I haven't enough strength to wonder why For many days now I have stayed inside Sickened and weak, not attempting to hide And yet now it feels as if I'm really running away As if my friends are my hunters and I am their prey My mind feels numb and my body is tired I wish I could get the fire which is desired Flare up then dusty air of my darkened room And take with you my unrighteous suspicion and my gloom Aching head, aching back, sleep and rest 'til tomorrow May the fright be gone by then and may so